Clarity

by

Holly Sanders

 

In times uncertain, realizations reveal

Defects exposed, once hidden with affect or charm.

Apparent, amoral mindsets hurt and take,

No excuses do they attempt to make.

While clarity reveals to those that give,

The universal language of selfishness and sin,

Kept hidden in times of certain, behind false persona and grins

 

The Ones who care become aggrieved.

Ashamed of others aggression and greed,

Realizing together, adapting, aware, accepting

Lost loves and trust, regret’s surely there

When the fog of safe stability lifts,

Its comforting stage curtain,

In times most uncertain.

 

 

when you put on makeup so you don.t scare the neighbors when ya'll slaughter and butcher that big soft shell [ or snapping] turtle later                                      .

 

 

correct my child or kick the dog, but don't let me catch your shovel in my garden..

you figure what the kid needs is a new horse and better shotgun to wean her off T.V.

if someone tans on pupose, hydrates or calls shampoo 'product' they made a wrong turn somewhere.

the only real discrimnation is reguarding yankees.

you have no fear of economic collapse because you have a relaoder for shotgun shells and a new tiller.

you always ask how a neighbor is when they are armed and angry late in the evening, in case they're sleep killing.

law enforcement avoids your neighborhood and when do they arrive they are nervous,and not only because 'we take care of our own' is yelled repeatedly.

you know two brothers named Pete and Repeat.

parents in the pick up line at school have gun racks, full of their guns.

your neighbors steal you blind, but leave a detailed list of what they took.

any animal killed during hunting season is shared.

same with fish or crabs.  

vegetarians wold starve.                                                         

if you can't stir up a good sauce piquant then you get no respect.

womens lib only applied to baiting your own hook and catching your own cattle.[when they get out.]

you come home and your neighbors are reroofing your house when you had no idea there was a problem.

men hollerthat you have a nice ass when your outside working, and it makes you happy.

So simple to see the cause/effect relationship in play. So much more at stake in our world today. Wow, instead of of thinking and analysis, I'll just swoon and emote, please pull up my fainting couch...better yet, deny all possibilities and let apathy take control.

Mob mentality is safe, give in to the herd as they rush over the cliff to the valley of perceived promise and protection.

 

enlighten youself...

Our dollar is only worth the faith we instill in it. After all, it is only paper.

how much you dare to share

your words,pure thought, insight

fears plain of none to spare

reject, condemn, insult

share open, new beliefs or hope,

ideas

fear least the shame imposed

by pseudo-intellectuals, all clothed

false selves, judgmental souls

free true, object to none,

bear minds and heart disrobed

nearly naked a soul subscribes,

then growth we all derive.

unite in shame, we dress

naked, our lives progress

 

 

 

How to lose your home without knowing it in a day!!!

 

 I would like to share my last desperate attempt to save my property by pleading with my hero of past conflicts, Tony Goolsby!!!![applause..] Texas state Rep. for advice and if it is too late for me, changes.

hope this New Year finds you well. I hope you remember our communication from several months back, I want to tell you again that I value the guidance and advice you gave me.I thank you for being the sole support I had dealing with Parkwood Creek HOA. In typical fashion, I fear, I am back to plead for assistance again.
A brief synopsis of recent events.
I had to return to my hometown and decided to sell my paid off property on Midpark RD. I was fortunate enough to have my close friend Scott as a buyer.
We agreed on  the details and signed contracts. Awaiting financing, We decided that Scott should occupy the property under a buyer's lease addendum, paying only the HOA dues until the loan funded. If some problem with the approval occurred I would finance my condo for him immediately.
At this time Jackson Potter with his HOA management company becomes an aggressive participant in this process. He does not represent Scott or myself, he works for the Board, paid for with our dues.
He has a history with my friend. Mr. Potter tells me negative statements.. etc. .
Fast forward, I am now probably going to lose my property.  I have attached all the email communication I have regarding this,( no other written communication) and hope you can advise me on helping keep my dear friend off the streets. Mr. Potter will ,in my opinion, foreclose on my home, Monday, and he as far as I can tell is within his legal rights. As I said, the condo has no liens, is newly remolded, and desirable. We almost made our closing date of 1-15-2009.
I came home and survived a Hurricane, was here to help my family when nature rendered them homeless, only to have my place in Dallas taken by Envision Reality on behalf of people I had grown to love, Parkwood Creek hoa. I have been notified by e-mail, this evening, to pay money I do not have, tomorrow, in Dallas, which I can't possibly go, in order to fend off the lawyers , I help pay for with my dues , to save my homestead ( my young daughter is really confused and upset  I have no idea how to explain that our money paid for someone to steal our place we made pretty together and hurt a friend we love). I am numb. Please make this year new in the reformation of this piracy. People like Mr. Potter operate property management firms without regard for ethics, fiduciary duty, unlicensed and with no state, federal or moral quide. All while using his position to retaliate and acquire assets. It is the most pure example of fascism I have could imagine. I think what bothers me the most is, I am not at all surprised... 
Peace to you and yours.

Well I'll be. In a couple of hours I will have the privilage of actually meeting with an adjuster. I have what we fondly call a blue roof on my other house. My Mom is staying there because she finds the rent affordable [ none], and she has no roof. Her house iwas remoldeled courtesy of Ike. His style is an open concept, completely open. The fema dude called it "a total loss". I call it a teardown and do-over.

The swift response of my insurance company is a delight. I was growing attached to my tarp roof. They are the trend down here.

What I learned during Ike...

 

You can sleep through a hurricane..

Life without power is not so bad after 2 weeks, and sheer will can restore it for a childs birthday.

Laundry can actually look dirtier after washed in a tub...

Coolers are the key to survival..

Martial law has nothing to do with karate...

Communal living is a true neighborhood..

Random outbursts of crying suck when done in public..

Dial-up is a joke..

MRE's are wonderful, but I suspect they have laxitive as a secret ingredient...

The stress during clean-up causes a variety of illnesses..

If you try real hard, you can remember the beach the way it looked when you were a child.

This is still a traumatic event here...homelessness is rampant.

Charities are absolute lifesavers...

 

 

I am friggin Moving. Sydney (my 10 year old) looked at the new diggs and gave it a thumbs up. I got it on her word, hell, her judgement is historically better than mine. The mover dude came though yesterday and commented ,' sure, you'll be ready?' Hell no! the comment caused any packing progression to come to a screaming halt. The last 24 hr bum rush is my specialty, and now he gets to deal with fully freaked out me, on friday...sassy pants.

Sydney's discription of house... kitchen floor everywhere= italian tile,  funny polka dot wall= faux paint,  no dishwasher= sure there is call her, Sydney maytag. *** land looks like a lovely soccer field and we can garden and there are beautiful trees= sold. ***

My best friend got a new dog for me..[ not only reason for my long absence] She came from the pound and is an absolute trip. We think she is a Bischon Frise. 'Bunni' is the neatest creature.

I have never felt so attached to an animal. In thanks, she is attached to my bud. He did save her doggie life [ and mine by bringing her to me]. I never imagined it could be possible to conceive a dog with a gay man but stranger things have happened. Her Daddy is very important to her and she is one sad girl when he leaves her presence.

It is incredible how animals can love. I wish humanity would learn from their example....

 

My new job...

 

I am now using my Real Estate license again. If my Dallas friends need apartments, uptown lofts, condos or have any need for Real Estate services then check out my site.. http://apartmentmax.com/holly/

 

Thanks you guys and wish me luck with my new endeavor ( I'll need it!)

Here in Dallas people are reluctant to own their mistakes. I was amazed in the amount of projection and denial. When I commented on this to  another non-native he said there was a name for it "Dallastude" Wow, that a community this size has such an obvious flaw that out-of- towner's have named it, is remarkable.

 

Our community here in cyberland has a nameable affliction, Tagattitude. I have been busy this weekend and have no had time to reply properly to a tag. When I did, I noticed that people seemed dismayed or put out having to write the list. Or they whined about this task in their (bllaaahhhgg) blog.. I think this is pretentious. It has made me a lttle ill. Superior and elitist mindsets are transparent and annoying. I am pretty sure that people here love to have comments on their blog, friends to message and attention to their interests..If they didn't they could write in a spiral.

 

I was excited to play, the Tagattitude really blew it for me. 

I have to go clean up my friends list now.

I can hang with phony people at the country club.

 

 

{Writing this has been such a burden.......}